23 Aug Vyasapuja 2011 offering to Srila Prabhupada
The following is H.H. Bhakti Charu Maharaja’s Vyasapuja offering to Srila Prabhupada. Full Vyasapuja book 2011 can be downloaded at Krishna.com
Bhakti Charu Swami
Dear Srila Prabhupada,
Please accept my most humble obeisances at your lotus feet on this most auspicious day of your divine appearance.
I do not know how everyone felt at the time of your appearance on this planet. Naturally it must have brought immense joy to everyone’s heart. At that time all the stars and planets must have adjusted themselves in such a way that everything became extremely auspicious, and demigods must have showered flowers from heaven. However, while reflecting on that occasion I tend to remember the day of your disappearance and lament my irreparable loss. I was blessed with such inconceivable good fortune to have your association, but I carelessly squandered it.
So many days and nights I spent with you, trying to serve you, but instead of serving I simply created disturbances for you. Those days I had such a wonderful opportunity to ask you so many relevant questions, but my stupid mind was so obsessed with its search for sense gratification that it did not allow me to recognize that rare opportunity. So many times you gave me so many profound instructions, but at those times I did not bother to press the recording button of the tape recorder lying just next to you, to immortalize those instructions. So many times you spoke about such important topics, such as varnasrama, initiation in ISKCON after your disappearance, and our relationship with the Gauidya Matha, but due to my immaturity I could not quite grasp them and they just went flying over my head. Today I lament missing all those golden opportunities and wish I could get them back once again.
When the heart is afflicted with such feelings of despair, I try to console myself by remembering your assurance that you would always be with us just as your spiritual master was always with you. You were never separated from him, even for a moment. Theoretically I understand that possibility, but due to my countless offenses and heaps of impurities I fail to experience that. From your words and actions, the secret behind such a relationship has become obvious: Love.
I do not know whether I will ever be able to develop that kind of love and attachment for Your Divine Grace and be blessed with your constant presence in my heart. But then I remember your assurance that you would always be with us through your ISKCON. Please, Srila Prabhupada, allow me to realize that fact. Please let me become convinced without a shadow of doubt that you did not leave us, that through your ISKCON you are always present with us. Please let me realize that just as Sri Krsna manifested Himself in this age as His holy name and as Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu manifested Himself in His sankirtana movement, you have manifested yourself in your ISKCON.
You have been sent by Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu to fulfill His prediction that the Krsna consciousness movement would spread all over the world, to every town and village. During your physical presence you spread it all over the world, but now, through ISKCON, you will take it to every town and village and literally fulfill that prediction.
If the goal of my life is to serve you, then let me continue to serve, with all sincerity, this very special manifestation of yours. Serving your personal form was easy and ecstatic; now the time has come to show my love for you by serving your ISKCON, no matter how difficult it may be.
You gave us three instructions that enable us to successfully serve that very special form of yours:
1. “No matter what happens, don’t leave ISKCON.”
2. “Your love for me will be shown by how you cooperate with each other [to further the mission of ISKCON],” and
3. “Always consider the GBC the ultimate managing authority of ISKCON [and follow that authority.]” Please, Srila Prabhupada, guide me in my spiritual journey and never allow me to deviate from this wonderful goal. I have come to you to learn how to love. Please allow me to love you in this very special way and achieve the ultimate perfection of my existence.
Your insignificant servant eternally, Bhakti Charu Swami